I have been doing a lot of reflecting on my life lately – where I have been, what I have accomplished, and also how I have failed and where I thought or hoped I would be at this point in my life.
In many ways, I have set goals and worked hard to achieve them. And I am proud of those accomplishments. But there are also many ways in which I have failed (which is okay – we learn from our failures as much as our successes) and my life doesn’t exactly look like I thought it would at this time in my life.
There are things I have thought about doing. And sometimes I convince myself that I am too old, that I had my chance, that it seems silly to try to become something I am not (yet).
But then I remember the words of George Eliot: It’s never too late to be who you might have been. Never too late. Never.
And so I ask myself to be completely honest with myself.
- Am I living the life I have envisioned for myself?
- If I died tomorrow, would I be able to look back at my life and feel content that I have lived each day, being all I hoped to be? Would I be proud of the life I led?
- Would I feel that I have achieved everything that I wanted to?
- Do I live each day aligned with the things that are most important to me?
What am I waiting for? Well, maybe I need first to understand what really matters to me. Maybe I need to stop making excuses or to stop procrastinating. Maybe my fear of failure or of imperfection keeps me from stepping out and trying. Maybe all the reasons why I should NOT make a change feel bigger than the reasons I should.
I remember when I started this blog. It was on my 45th birthday and I decided that there were 45 things I needed to accomplish that year. I didn’t. And that is okay. But perhaps it is time to re-evaluate some of those items. Maybe it’s time to add to the list. Maybe what I really need is to examine who I want to be not just what I want to do.
I have had some huge changes in my life this year. I moved out on my own. I changed jobs. There was a global pandemic. Maybe that’s enough change. But maybe it’s also the perfect time for change. Maybe the time to step out and go for those goals is right now.
It’s never too late.
The only time it’s too late to begin reaching for what you want and who you want to be is when your life is over. In the meantime, if we are breathing, we are learning. If we are learning, we are growing. And if we are growing, we can certainly be moving toward becoming who we are meant to be. It is not always easy, particularly when we have responsibilities and routines and expectations placed upon us, to step out and start something new. But the limits we place upon ourselves is most often what prevents us from reaching our goals and becoming who we always dreamed we could be.
So, today I will take a look at who I might have been, and ask myself if I still want to be her. If so, my next step is to get past my limiting belief and take a step toward becoming.
Have you ever wondered if it is too late to be or do something? How do you move past those feelings?