28 of 45 Moments of Wonder
Today I am feeling a little lost. There are situations in my life that are causing me great distress and there is nothing I can do to change them. Believe me, I have tried. For six months I have tried to change the outcome and mend a broken relationship, but I can not. Not for a lack of trying but because I can’t control other people and their willingness to come to the table to talk.
So what do I do? Do I keep fighting? Do I just continue stewing and feeling tormented? Or do I find a way to change my attitude and accept that I have done all I can? Obviously I want to do the latter but it is really hard.
Sometimes I come to the blog with some insight to share. Often I spend a lot of time thinking about things and I just want to share it with you. Today is a little different. Today I come with a question.
How do I move on? How do I stop wrestling with this person in my head and allowing them to continue tormenting me with their intentional and punishing silent treatment? How do I begin to believe that their actions have less to do with me (I have been trying to find out what I did to offend this person) and more to do with them and their own issues?
If you can’t change your fate, change your attitude. Amy Tan’s quote speaks volumes to me today. Friends, I am reaching out for help today. I want to change my attitude, but I don’t know how.